My grateful list

I know that Oprah was big on these grateful lists, but lately I’ve been feeling that I have been in a negative frame of mind, and one of the ways to get out of that is to write down a few things each day to be grateful for.  Here’s my list.

  1. I have a fantastic dog who matches my personality perfectly
  2. I have a job that lets me work from home most days out of the week
  3. fuzzy faux sheepskin slippers
  4. I have legs that let me walk and work out and enjoy the weather
  5. I am able to buy a new (ish) car without worry
  6. My dad is doing my taxes for me, and I don’t have to worry about 2 states and 2 jobs of income

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My lenten practice has been sliding lately.  I have been reading (mostly) before watching TV or using the internet, but the NCAA games have made that really hard.  And yes, I know that’s the point, but I’ve been giving myself lots of breaks on this.  Makes me wonder what my priorities list is.

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Perfectionism isn’t a good thing

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The sun is finally out – and I’m so thrilled about that.  It’s been a brutal winter here in Chicago and I’ve got to say, I’ve not really enjoyed that part of moving back here at all.  I think I actually might have a version of Seasonal Affective Disorder – although it seems like it’s just the trendy affliction to have, but my mood is so much more bright when the weather starts turning.

Last week was difficult – I just could not be happy, and actually felt rather depressed.  This is hard for me, as I am a generally optimistic/happy person so when I’m in the dumps, I have an extremely hard time dealing with that.  So, I do what any geek would do – I asked my twitter peeps (“tweeps”) what they do when they’re down in the dumps.  And because my geek-fu is not as strong as others, this posted to my facebook as well – which I didn’t want to do. I mean – my MOTHER and my DAD are on facebook, and who wants them to see that?

Turns out, I got a wealth of information, help and positive comments from both places, but got more on facebook.  And I also learned a valuable lesson – one I’m still learning:  asking for help is not a BAD thing.  It’s not admitting you failed, it’s admitting you’re human.  I need to keep remembering this as I have a disease of my own: perfectionism.

I’m not sure if it’s nature or nurture, but I definitely felt the need to be the perfect girl when I was younger, and have the need to control everything in my life.  I’m now realizing the hard way that while this might have been something that helped me get where I am today, it’s really not helping me now – it’s actually harming me.  Or at the very least, not helping me to get where I want to be in the near future.  I’m tired of being single; I want someone other than my (wonderful) dog to share my life with. 

But that means admitting I’m not perfect and being able to share that with other people, because really, no one wants to live with perfect, and perfect really isn’t all it’s cracked up to be.

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No more prying eyes for me

After a long off-site meeting, in which I felt the need to be very careful on what I pulled up on my screen during the day, I noticed that when I looked over at one of my staff’s computer, I couldn’t see his screen. I asked him what he’d purchased and he directed me to the 3M Privacy Filter. Genius! Not that I don’t work when I’m in the office (or in an offsite meeting), but it’s nice to be able to check a website or purchase something on Amazon with a little less worry. I had to actually do some research on the web to determine if my screen was wide screen or not, and I was on my way. Turns out this little thing also helps with glare and the headaches I sometimes get from that as well. Nifty!

Project Connect 365

I’m realizing that as I move around the country that I’m very bad about staying in contact with all my friends.  I’m a proximity person and I let a lot of relationships drop, and I’d like to change that.  I want to have connections with people, and I’m mostly at fault for this.

So, inspired by a random blog post that I can’t track down any longer, I am going to start up Project Connect 365:  One email, phone call, or postcard to a friend each day.  It certainly can’t be too hard, and should be pretty satisfying.